rainbow

i saw a rainbow today.
it made my day.
it carved a smile on my face.
i wanted to shout it out but when i turn to my left and right,
the expression on their faces were sour.
hence i kept it to myself.

seeing 2 rainbows in 2 months in 2 different countries,
is something spectacular indeed.

i believe things are changing for the better.

farewell

farewell has been hard for me most of the time

but it gets even harder when it involves a close kin like my lil' brother

tears were rolling down my cheecks

as much as I would like to hide these emotions

saying goodbye is much harder than it seems to be 

although it's only for 3 months

no more whining companion

nobody to update me with the latest english songs

nobody to share the household chores with

no more evening badminton games

no more voices that goes "baby,baby nooo" (Justin Bieber's Baby)

no more screams from mum going "branon, do this, do that...!"

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and the list goes on...

all these will be gone for 3 months

I am gonna miss them so much.

Sometimes we are so used to their existence that we take them for granted.

CNY

I've have been celebrating CNY for 22 yrs now

Truthfully, I've never understand the true meaning behind CNY until recently

I am sure to every Chinese celebrating CNY would know that it's a simple celebration with closely related family members and a reunion where everyone meets everyone annually without fail

For 21 yrs, CNY has been just an ordinary yearly routine 

Basically we do the same thing every year

An ordinary reunion dinner at my grnadma's place, followed by stacks of DVDs for the rest of the days (violent movies most of the time) and of course not forgetting CNY visiting as well as red packets

Everything was the same every year until each and everyone of us could predict what we are gonna do for the following years and soon we got bored of it

Hence, CNY no longer possess any significance to our family

The spirit of CNY died off as years pasess by

Until recently, I truly understand what is CNY all about

It's such a simple term, FAMILY..

Being able to gather together and meet all ur close relatives is best thing u could ever wish for be it a reunion dinner in a fine dining restaurant or in that old house of ur grandparents'

Being able to catch up with them is a blessing telling me that I should be grateful

Playing a simple game like 'chor tai ti' and blackjack minus the gambling with a big bunch of cousins would make such a blissful memory

Watching violent movies on every CNY eve, a trademark of our family shall it be

Grandparents', Aunties, Uncles, Mommies and Daddies distributing ang pows is a great delight to all of us by the end of the day

Loud laughs and voices of everyone in the house providing enough joy to share over the festive season

Lastly, lousang, big prawns, roasted duck and chicken, cans of shandy, packets of kuacis and groundnuts, a basket of mandarin oranges, containers filled with cookies are the favourites of our family

That was CNY to me, what about yours?

I've seen all this coming to me this few days

At some point, I felt that everything makes sense after all

And I did not understand it until I am 22

I should be ashamed of myself, shouldn't I?

emo

潘伟柏 - 左右

the current songs looping on my player makes me emo

it gets even worse after replying to april's mail

it has been more than 2 months since she we last saw her

no idea when we will see her again

but I am keeping my fingers crossed that it would be really soon

we barely talk to her in this 2 long months

and she seems to be really busy

though we miss her so much, we were also glad that her dreams came true

her dream to study in UK once seems far fetched

due to some personal problems

but now that she's there, we are glad that she's doing fine

despite the fact that she had a hard time adapting

we were sure she would pull through

anyways, I know she won't be reading this

it's just a sign of how much the rest of the cartoonz in M'sia miss her

the 24-7 cartoonz here will always love u APRIL LIM!!!

Tohoshinki - Hug 

p/s:been having weird dreams lately..was often dragged out of my comfy sleep because of these dreams..so pls pls do leave me weird dreams..

summer break

my super long summer break has finally arrived

life away from uni, meaning life free from assignments and exams..

yooohooooo!!

exams was not that bad this time

however, my results are expected to be worse than the last one

too much of last minute work this sem

my bad

well, come what may

will just have to work harder the followin semester

somehow I am not used to days where I spend my time effortlessly

life used to be more productive and time used to be well spent

currently, it seems like there isn't much to do

plans I had before this?

hmmm..

I think my only plan for the holidays was to work

still job hunting tho and fun seems far fetched as I am broke

had a great weekend with my bestie's graduation and the yumyum penang trip

congrats tan wi shan!!

the earliest to graduate among cartoonz

hopefully u will get ur car and not forgetting a job interview anytime soon

in the meantime, enjoy working at Fluff!

okay..I seriously have to run back to my torturing typing now..

toodles!

rainy days

Well, it might not have rained in Klang

But it rained in Subang

Hence, these are one of the days where your feet swim in your shoes

Reminds me much of the days back in school with the frequent "banjirsss"

Unfortunately for me, I was wearing a long pants along with my red sneakers

Half wet at the bus stop waiting silently for the bus

Though I felt disgusted with the feeling of being wet

This rainy day relieves the hot weather in the past few months

So it's not so bad after all..eh?

Haa...what a relief!

And it's the best weather ever to sleep!

Too bad I had to travel home at that time..

random thoughts

recently, random thoughts has occupied much space in my mind

from assignments to exams,part time jobs,holiday plans, and something explicitly random;

a future plan - sounds serious rite?

no worries..just a deal between a close friend and me

We dealt on backpacking travelling by the age of 32 if either of us has not settled down

Y backpacking?

coz we figured we might not be able to make a fortune in a short period of 8 years unless we hit a jackpot

hence plans for luxurious trips has to be terminated

Well, both of us loves travelling

a passion we both share very much..

I would say if I am not studying communications now, I would be in the traveling line now just like her

likewise, I recalled making another similar deal with another friend of mine back in college days

therefore, maybe someday we 3 could all go on backpacking together..

random right?

I mean it may  sound like I've had my life all planned out

but frankly, NO as this notion came to me out of nowhere

I guess it came to me when I realised that there is much more to life other than love

Love may seem ultimate and a priority to someone else

but it remains as a secondary to me

the thought of being tied down to a lifetime commitment scares me most of the time

maybe it's just me but freedom comes first 

somehow, I got used to being single and independent

being single means being free from most probably the most excruciating pain of all

though at times you might need to face some loneliness issues

however, loneliness is another issue altogether

next to my family, my friends matter the most

so if I was ever given a choice to choose between friend and love

I would certainly go for friendship

yes, I could say that I am a postmodernist (a lil i guess)

but in an era of globalisation, it is really common..wakaka..

sorry but I had globalisation as a subject this sem and television studies which explores much on this concept

hence, implementing my studies in a blog spot is not bad after all

that would mean that I actually paid attention in classes..haha

regardless of how much thought I would like to put into my holiday plans

I should really be studying at this point

off to my studies now..or should I say lunch?

hehehe..