Friday, August 24, 2007

can I be selfish??

People say that I am kind but I always doubt that...noe y?

That is because I don't believe in kindness itself anymore...Being kind to others doesn't mean that they will be kind to u instead they take advantage of u...they even take u for granted..they expect u to help them out when they are in trouble..they expect u to noe what to do when they say that so-great-word " I don't know"...they expect u do it again and again just because u r KIND...they use u when they think u give them benefits and get what they want...they treat u only as an ORDINARY FRIEND...no sharing secrets n stuff like that...u r not part of them when it comes to fun..u are just a freaking nerd and geek among them...smses only contains words like "how to do this","how to do that" and not a single word on "hey,lets have fun this weekend"...nobody cares when u are in trouble..they don't even lend a helping hand...

as a person,I don't believe in perfection and of course no one can be perfect in this world...no matter how KIND a person can be,there will a time when they are selfish..they would only look and think for themselves...they would be the 1st ones to grab their shoes and run when they dun wan to get involved with u...but I always have the thinking that the least I can do for a friend is to stand up for them when u think they are right...lending them a hand when they really need one...giving moral support when I can't support them practically...that's the least I can do for an ORDINARY FRIEND..but it seems like I am not getting the respect I want as a friend...
sorry for being tis emo...I have been keeping this to myself for a very long time..did not tell anyone nor express it coz I don't know how to puzzle out my sentence to make it sound better...but finally,I managed to.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

HI mumpui.....!~~(choon here)

hehe.... c i read blogs....
well sorry for only reading ur blog now....
i know...i know...
but u know i don read blogs rite...
so sorry la...

but here's some advise and opinion to ur so called "friends"....

"friends" are like that one la...
wat u expect...
unless those that really stands besides u when something gone wrong...those are true friends la...
wat to do...
this is life...

neway....
next time if they ask u for anything..
just be mean la...
coz frankly speaking, u can't be 'kind' all the time rite...
i mean... trust me...
i've been trough it..
being nice once in a while or at the beginning is ok..
but after a while..
u'll get fed up n tired..
so just tell them off...
some might take it well that u're done helping their lazy arse... some might not...
but who cares...
if they do not care bout us as a friend n was just using u to help them get their freaking grades...
then y must u care so much,,,..
i mean..
we're half way in the working world d now...
sometimes u just have to think it this way la...
that everything is business.. no personal grudge or anything la...
but if they wanna take it personally then u can't really help it oso la...

i did it once...
i just told her straight that i'm leaving her to do her own work n i'm joining another group..
so she's left alone...
but who cares....
since she's not helping herself... y should i bother...
though things get pretty awkward after that...
but after awhile...
life gets back to normal...
we might not talk much...'
but atleast we're true to ourselves..
she knows that she doesn't really like tagging with me if its not for my help in assignments...
n i know that i don't like doing everything damn thing...
so we split la...
that way we give ourselves the chance to find better partners n do better in our studies...

or if u really think that u've done all the work... then u could go n talk to ur lecturer...
tell her ur problem la...

that's y we have this peer assessment...
so as to assess our own peers...
if we think that don deserve the credit then we just put it down in the assessment....

that seems to work ... =P

those friends that took pictures with u in ur blog... how bout those friends.???
they should be ok rite...
then just stick with those few that u feel u can click with n who do thier work la...
then atleast u won jeopardise ur own studies because of trying to be 'kind'!!
get wat i mean??

be kind at the right times...
not to say just ditch those who are not reallly good...
but if u wanna help...there's a limit...
perhaps they're not so good at summarising their work...
but atleast u must make sure they put effort in doing it...
atleast they go search for info...or atleast they're present during site visits or something like that la...
or maybe they do their own part for the presentation slides but u do the final edditing...

then atleast they did something n u did help them n urself ma....

have to learn to be smart oso la...

well...
i'll let u in on a lil devil thing that i've done la...
but not here la...
go check cartoon...

hehe


kkkkk...
i know that my comment is so freaking long....
so i'm gonna stop now...

k then...
caos...

oh n by the way...
i oso wanna watch,...
i haven even watch high school musical 1...
anyone have the cd??

i got no astro...

caos...
maucks

take care...