Sick

When you thought you had everything under control

When you put so much effort in making it a success

When you get yourself all excited about it

When you were not being selfish at all

When you put others into your consideration

And SNAP!

Reality hits you with an ugly truth

Things will not always work out the way you had it

People might ignore you on the way

People might not appreciate what you have done

Even when you are not asking for much

You had other's intention with you

But somehow others might neglect yours

Trying as hard as you could does not mean it's always good enough

It will never be good enough for people to realize just how much you like for it to pay off

Never and never will be good enough

At times, too much of anxiety brings me to the verge of giving up

Giving up and probably let it happen eventually

Then, perhaps the impact or downfall would not be that awful

Which makes me feel better at the least

But, too bad my anxiety was at the highest level of all

Hence, I'll have to bare with that awful feeling

I starting to get sick of it..