changes..

I realise I am someone who likes living in the past
I always like taking a stroll down memory lane even though I know that it's time to move on with life
By taking this stroll, I always a feeling of discomfort though I am confident the memories would stay fresh in my mind all the time
Despite the memories, taking a step forward in life seems hard
Accepting the fact that life would be different as the people I meet would be bringing different experience in a whole new stage of life
I wouldn't even know whether will I be accepted well in this society that I have not lived in
A society so unfamiliar to me, I wonder will I be able to fit in at all
I doubt I will be able to adapt to the changes that is waiting for me at the other end of the line where I am standing now

I believe I was where I am 2 years back, only difference is that I had more experience in life, an aim to achieve and the amount of people I got to know grew
Standing at the very same spot again, I began to realise I have to take those steps again to move forward
I do not know whether by taking those steps again, will I be able to survive in that society I am about to face

At times, I tried being optimistic but at the midst of it, the anxiety would just sail through without anchoring
On top of that, I keep telling myself to prepare for whatever that is coming my way and when I am prepared, there's always something there to beat me down and never let me stand strong again be it thoughts or flashes of memories

Believing in ourselves is one of the factors shaping who we are now
My lack of confidence did not bring me far enough to let me stand strong and face all this with a smiling face
Even putting this whole post in place took me an hour and with the company of some emo song to put me in the mood
You may see me as someone with no worries coz that's just a way of keeping myself happy in a crowd and I felt it's hard for me to express my feelings in a speech
Well, just wish me luck in gaining the courage to face whatever I need to in the near future

caryn
this is something for you..to congratulate on ur efforts and being able to let it go in only 4 days..well done dear!
below is the lyrics..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CA1ZDsqauN4

刘力扬 - 眼泪笑了

比想象中更痛 你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控
回忆不跟你走 都挤在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折
是美的

心碎成了沙漠 就快开凿绿洲
我没有时间不知所措
你温柔的双手 本就不属于我
又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折
是美的

你眼泪都笑了 谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的 就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候 我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾 因为我已爱过你
深深的

CNY '09

I noe this post comes a bit late..
but I just wanna post it..
furthermore I am still in the CNY period..
it's Chap Goh Mei..

so this year's CNY was kinda fun..

I used to travel back to Ipoh with my family to visit my gramdma..

and almost every year it's the same..

we dun really go visiting but this year was really different..

the trip this year had a twist..
my brother and I got to know more about Perak thru my mum n grandma's eyes and perspective..

In my mind all along,Ipoh was a town..nothing different form klang..nothing special..

the only thing I noe is different is of course the food whereby they are way cheaper and way more delicious down that small little town..

but I learned that there is more to it..

there are certain things we can't see in klang..

and comparing klang to Ipoh,I think I would prefer Ipoh..

adventuring in the town with my mum,lil bro n grandma was a great experience..

for once I felt that this CNY is much much more meaningful rather than sitting at home..

so while venturing,we took photos..

my bro n I were so excited..

and we did managed to get some shots..

this is actually some old planes we found next to the airport in Ipoh..my mum told me that the only airport in Perak is actually abandoned but the maintainence is still good..the building is still in good condition from what we can see..

this is another old plane which I find more significant..

this I think would be the biggest outlet of OLDTOWN kopitiam since this is the hometown of this brand..I got another one which is more close up but I dunno where my bro placed it..so just bare with this..it's a 2 storey outlet..

the ever famous tanjong rambutan..it's actually a very small town in perak..n the hospital bahagia ppl always joke about is really there..too bad I can't get a shot coz we can't even see the hospital..

this is the only high school in this town..this town has only one primary school and one high school..imagine klang..how many high school it has?

on the way back from tanjung rambutan,we bump upon this shop by the name of "Soon Choy"..n that is actually my dad's name..we were wondering when did our dad opened a hardware shop back in Ipoh? furhermore he's from klang..

a very beautiful memorial park up in the hills..really beautiful..must cost a lot..

I just find this shot of the tree is really beautiful..the really contrasting colours of the leaves..

the railway station in Ipoh town..see the maintainence there? it is really well kept..in fact I think it looks brand new from far..besides,the town is kinda clean..

this is a shot of a cotton tree..it's kind bald coz the cottons buds are all on the ground..in Ipoh we can find a lot of cotton tree..in fact I have shot whereby the tree is full of cotton..all blossomed..it's really beautiful..looks like snowflakes on trees during winter..again I dunno where my bro placed it..gotta go dig it from him..will show u guys some other time..

well these are some of the shots we took but I can't post them all up here..

the process is just too long..

dragging those photos up n down the screen..

I guess I am getting a lil bias here..

I seem to like my mum's hometown very much now..

despite the good food n good price,there is just so much to see and learn..

I even actually got a chance to visit a chicken farm but we missed it coz my mum's fren went to China for CNY..too bad..

what I've seen is just only half of what is there in the town..

there is just so much to explore more..

the temples in the caves,orchards,those kampungs with big n smelly markets n small stalls selling "chee cheong fun","ABC","char kuay teow" and a load more..

then there is modern part of the town of shopping malls and sunway city of Ipoh..

maybe another trip back there in another year,I would be able explore the whole city..

this is just part of my CNY..

I had an outing with cartoonz and also my coll mates..

Cartoonz..

Date: 31/01/09

Time: 2pm - 12am

Venue: Sunway Pyramid and SS15 Subang (if I am not wrong)

me indulging my peach waffle and wi shan with her american hot dog in waffle world..

brief..

just thought I would drop by to say hie n also a HAPPY CNY to everyone..
might be a bit late but it's still within the CNY period rite?
haha..will post up some pics when I m done compiling them..
futhermore these few days was not really in the mood to blog..

chao!

Pre CNY

maybe it's due to the recession..
this year's CNY dun seem to be any merrier than the years before..
no more crowds in the hypermarket rushing for mandarin oranges..
aunties in the morning market is only buy daily usage products..
no more crowds in shopping malls grabbing new colthes..
no pasar malam stalls selling cny deco shouting "3 for 10"

even in my family and at home nothing seems merrier..
no more cny decos like the years before..
workload in cleaning the hse do seem lesser..
but there are more painting to do..
my gates are in purple this year..
and I am liking that colour very much..
my hse certainly looks brighter this year..
I was even worried that it might turn out ugly when my mum n I first chose that colour..
but now I thank God it looks great..

my status currently:
So fyi, I am officially unemployed now..
mushrooms are growing everywhere..
will be starting my studies end of feb..
would be taking degree in communication n psychology in monash..
that would be a double major..
a 3 years duration..long way to go..
3 years from now,not much of a plan yet maybe a lil charity before I start work officially

What do I mean by "a lil charity"?
Recently, was told by caryn about a program working abroad to help the ones in need in a few countries like China and Africa..all u have to do is just pay for ur air ticket and leave the rest to them..they provide food and accomodation..so in return u help out those who r in need like HIV patients or even children who do not get proper education..it seems really interesting and it was really what I was looking for all along..I've always wanted to do such things but I dun really noe who to approach and when caryn told me about this I got really attached to the program..so i thought I might try it out..I might do it during my summer breaks or maybe even after i graduate..I guess after graduating would be better as I would have all the time I need and also the money I need..

guess i am straying from my topic already..
so I'll just stop..
LOL..

Distance.Gap.

Things can change in the matter of seconds.."tick tock tick tock", that's how time changes..
With every passing second, the time changes; people changes..
But the gap between a second from the other is not even measureable..
I'm sure that none of us matters how far is one second from the other but I'm sure that people matters about what happens in that split second..

Siting on my bed today, I realise that things have change as every second, minute and hour passes by. Nothing is how it used to be anymore; the relationship between people, the priorities in life and each step we will be taking next. I came to understand how gap and distance influence relationship between people. The distance maynot be too far nor too near but still it manages to affect a relationship. I am not talking about relationship betwwen couples nor lovers as that will be different. The one I am referring to is friendship. Even a distance of 2 classrooms can affect the friendship between 2 best friends of many years. They may used to have a lot in common but in the matter of months, everything changes from something to nothing.

Suprisingly, a distance of 4 classes did not even affect a single bit of the friendship between them. They still get along really well. How can distance affect one and do not affect the other? In fact, the nearer one is drifting apart and the further one is drawing closer. This could also happen in a split second just like how the previous second u're in 2008 and the next second u're in 2009.

p/s:HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

sorry ppl..being a bit emo these days..just a random post of what has just popped out of my mind in a split second..

malacca-muar '08 (pt 2)

finally got the pics..
after 2 hours editing, here they are..

our ais kacang & fried "chee cheong fun"

we saw this wedding car pumping petrol on the way to malacca

we are still wondering y is the queue so long???

our "not-so-nice & bad-service" hainanise chicken rice balls..

i like this pic...ppl that's jonker street

at the entrance of some tea house

sk's bday 06/12..stunned with the "bday tarts"

cartoonz with the tarts

this curry mee is good no doubt the auntie selling it was a bit fierce ..

rice cakes

by the looks of it,I think the uncle seeling rice cakes isn't that fierce after all..

king of tanjung emas..tanjung emas is like tanjung harapan in klang except that it is cleaner..

we were fascinated with the big durian,so we thought of taking a pic..everyone was looking..

tanjung emas (at night)

the only pic with all 6 of us

that's the end of our cartoonz very 1st road trip..

next destination would most probably be ipoh before kim choon leave for UK..

*updates* pt1

I noe I am lazy and lagging..
I practically blog once a month..

Been pretty busy lately..

Much has changed in these few weeks..

1 week I am still working in the company..

The other week I am in Muar..

The next week I am stuck at home..

So, official updates..

1. I am no longer working in wisma genting anymore..

my contract ended on 1/12..was really sad leaving everyone there knowing the fact that I'll hardly see them anymore..too bad I did not get a chance to take any pics with them before I left..after working for 6 months,I understand how hard it is to survive in the working society..u have to work hard just to earn that little amount of money..they dun come flying down from the sky..they aren't like falling leaves during autumn..working long hours and getting sick throughout my working life is all part n parcel of what we will be facing later in the working society..during our schooling days,we are very much pampered by our parents n teachers..how they actually spoonfeed us with information and the necessities in life..but while working,u're on ur own..u will need to learn how to interact with the ppl around u,understand them and please them in every way just so that everything goes well..firstly,u please ur boss and secondly ur clients..pleasing them is one thing..adapting to the working environment and living up to the rules and regulations is another thing..despite the fact that u need to put up with all these,there is also self satisfaction at times when u get ur salary..u're actually telling urself this:"this is what u deserve,it's what u've earned"..besides that, fulfilling other ppl's need is also another kind of self satisfaction..there are ppl on the line who just needs ur help that desparately and being able to help them is really delightful..we are also devils over the line when there is nothing else we can do to help them..we might try our best but at times there is really nothing we can do much..basically working gives u the taste of life whether is it sweet or even bitter..it all depends on how we look at it..if u choose to look on the bright side,everything seems right but if u choose to look on the darker side,nothing will ever seem right..most importantly,enjoy what u're doing and things would be much much easier..

*end of updates part 1*

part 2 would be my trip to muar..will update as soon as I get the photos..

*to be continued*