soulmates?

I doubt they are my soulmates or even my friends.
I can't even stay still for an hour to read them.
Psychology report is such a killer.

Sorry if I rant too much.

I'm fine

Photo credits to devian art

Trust me when I say this.
Even if I'm not, trust me that it's something else which bothers me.

postcards from April

Most of these postcards comes unexpectedly.
And most of the time, it is on the days when I am feeling blue.
They cheer me up, everytime, without fail.
I would say: APRIL LIM! you can read minds!!

It has been almost a year since she has left for Glasgow.
We can't put into words how much we miss her.
And so, this will be dedicated to her.

Every gathering, these words seems to pop up, "If only April is here with us".
If only.

林俊杰 - 会有那么一天

一九四三　世界大戰　
(It's) 1943, (during) the second world war
阿嬤年輕的時候
A time when grandma was young
爺爺愛他那麼多
Grandpa loved her so much　
他們感情很深
Their love was so deep
但是爺爺　身負重任
But grandpa held a heavy burden　
就在離鄉的那夜
On the night he left his village
給了阿嬤一個吻
He gave grandma a kiss　
輕聲說道
And softly said

我要離去　別再哭泣
I need to leave, please stop crying　
不要傷心　請你相信我
Don't be hurt, have faith in me
要等待　我的愛
And wait for my love　
陪你永不離開
To be with you and never part
因為會有那麼一天
Because that day will come　
我們牽著手在草原
With us holding hands in the garden
聽鳥兒歌唱的聲音
Listening to the birds singing
聽我說聲　我愛你
Listen to me saying I love you
 

夕陽西下　鳥兒回家　
The sun has set, and the birds have returned home
阿嬤躺在病床上
Grandma laying on her sick bed
呼吸有一點散漫
Breathing slowly　
眼神卻很溫柔
Yet with her gentle eyes
看著爺爺　濕透的眼
Looking at grandpa's teary eyes
握著他粗糙的手
Holding his rough hands
阿嬤淚水開始流
Grandma's tears starts rolling down　
輕聲說道
Softly saying

我要離去　別再哭泣
I need to leave, please stop crying　
不要傷心　請你相信我
Don't be hurt, have faith in me
要等待　我的愛
And wait for my love　
陪你永不離開
To be with you and never part
因為會有那麼一天
Because that day will come　
我們牽著手在草原
With us holding hands in the garden
聽鳥兒歌唱的聲音
Listening to the birds singing　
聽我說聲　我愛你
Listening to me say I love you

我要離去　別再哭泣
I need to leave, please stop crying　
不要傷心　請你相信我
Don't be hurt, have faith in me
要等待　我的愛
And wait for my love　
陪你永不離開
To be with you and never part
因為會有那麼一天
Because that day will come　　
我們牽著手在草原
With us holding hands in the garden
聽鳥兒歌唱的聲音
Listening to the birds singing　
聽我說聲　我愛你
Listen to me saying I love you 

我愛你 
I love you. 

I used to remember how this song makes me cry
everytime I played the CD.
Brings back memories. 

5/7/10

Today is one memorable day 
Not because it was a lucky day neither was it a wonderful day
Somehow it feels like I am sharing another's bad luck 


With the intention to make a trip to uni to collect my assignment and enroll for my compulsory subject
I took the train to subang then waited for the bus to sunway
After 45 mins, I am still stuck at the bus stop
Hence, I called a friend to see whether she could pick me up 
She said okay but I would need to wait for another 45 mins
So I waited for her and as I was waiting, there is a black guy sitting next to me
Initially, he was just sitting silently beside
All of a sudden he tapped on my shoulder and started talking to me
And he couldn't stop talking for the next 30 mins
He started talking about crappy stuff on love, his life in UK and how he is a footballer in some club
Also about how he could keep in touch with me (I'm like WTF?!)
I freaked out and thought of excusing myself perhaps to the shopping complex nearby
But I feared that he would follow hence I remained there
Keeping my fingers crossed that my friend would reach in no time
Finally when my friend was there to pick up, I quickly got up and walked away from him
Freaky!


Then we both proceed to Sunway college coz my friend had to meet someone there
We manage to get ourselves a parking in the college compound
Upon leaving, we paid the parking ticket
As we approach the machine, we realized we lost the ticket 
We failed to search for the ticket even though we went back trailing the road
So we had to pay the penalty for losing the ticket which cost us 20 bucks


After all that, in the same car park we met with an accident
We banged into another car and my friend have to fork out another amount of money to pay her
Then my friend was too afraid to drive anymore that I took over 
Driving to meet up with Nadia and then back to Monash and lastly back to the KTM station


Despite all that unfortunate events, meeting Nadia for the last time before she leaves do make us less unlucky that day
It was perhaps the "luckiest" thing that has happened to us


Neways, I will not know when will I ever meet Nadia again
Therefore, take care of yourself no matter which part of the world are you in
whether is it South Africa, US or Korea
I wish you all the best in your future undertakings!
Hopefully that bottle of stars would bring you all the luck you need
And please do remember us!!
Never forget us, you fickle minded, bubbly, unpredictable and loud Korean!

Litlle sense of happiness

I guess my emotions do fluctuate

Or perhaps they are just mood swings

At times, small gestures and unexpected people brightens up your day

Things seem to be filled with laughter for no apparent reason
Suddenly, a feeling of putting yourself back together emerges
Attempting to make everything work once more
Though the passion may not be as much as before
That little sense of happiness makes up to it.

Sick

When you thought you had everything under control

When you put so much effort in making it a success

When you get yourself all excited about it

When you were not being selfish at all

When you put others into your consideration

And SNAP!

Reality hits you with an ugly truth

Things will not always work out the way you had it

People might ignore you on the way

People might not appreciate what you have done

Even when you are not asking for much

You had other's intention with you

But somehow others might neglect yours

Trying as hard as you could does not mean it's always good enough

It will never be good enough for people to realize just how much you like for it to pay off

Never and never will be good enough

At times, too much of anxiety brings me to the verge of giving up

Giving up and probably let it happen eventually

Then, perhaps the impact or downfall would not be that awful

Which makes me feel better at the least

But, too bad my anxiety was at the highest level of all

Hence, I'll have to bare with that awful feeling

I starting to get sick of it..