People say that I am kind but I always doubt that...noe y? That is because I don't believe in kindness itself anymore...Being kind to others doesn't mean that they will be kind to u instead they take advantage of u...they even take u for granted..they expect u to help them out when they are in trouble..they expect u to noe what to do when they say that so-great-word " I don't know"...they expect u do it again and again just because u r KIND...they use u when they think u give them benefits and get what they want...they treat u only as an ORDINARY FRIEND...no sharing secrets n stuff like that...u r not part of them when it comes to fun..u are just a freaking nerd and geek among them...smses only contains words like "how to do this","how to do that" and not a single word on "hey,lets have fun this weekend"...nobody cares when u are in trouble..they don't even lend a helping hand...
as a person,I don't believe in perfection and of course no one can be perfect in this world...no matter how KIND a person can be,there will a time when they are selfish..they would only look and think for themselves...they would be the 1st ones to grab their shoes and run when they dun wan to get involved with u...but I always have the thinking that the least I can do for a friend is to stand up for them when u think they are right...lending them a hand when they really need one...giving moral support when I can't support them practically...that's the least I can do for an ORDINARY FRIEND..but it seems like I am not getting the respect I want as a friend...
sorry for being tis emo...I have been keeping this to myself for a very long time..did not tell anyone nor express it coz I don't know how to puzzle out my sentence to make it sound better...but finally,I managed to.
