pretend or not to pretend?

i m so not myself today...
i dunno what is bothering me but i seriously dun feel like myself today...
luckily by the end of the day,i got back to my senses...
that's the only time i felt like i was doing the right thing...

sometimes i wonder how do people fit in anywhere and anytime they want...
do they actually pretend or are they just simply acceptable everywhere?
they seem to get along with whoever they meet...
they dun have communication problems...
they seem to be able to live up to other people's expectations...
people dun even bitch about them instead they praise them...
people seem to like them a lot even though they are pretentious...

i dunno how far m i being myself...
i always tell myself to only live up to my own expectations n forget bout the rest..
but it is not as simple as it seems...
sometimes i would like to think that i m not pretending n i m just being myself..
but i can't help it at times...
facing different people will cause u to act differently n that includes pretending...
i would like to tell people straight forward that i dun like what they are doing n how they act
but it seems really hard as human's feelings are really fragile...
i hate hurting people's feelings as i believe in karma like what ms serene said "what goes around comes around"..
but keeping it inside doesn't help either...

little things...

finally the things and ppl that brighten up this few dull weekends of mine...

fantastic four and the rise of the silver surfer

this is 1 good show...great hunks and 1 hot babe..love johnny storm!!!!!

ryn!!!!luv ya!!thnx for the great day!!hope u luv those wedges!!!

sk!!!luv ya too!!!it's great hanging out with u guys again!!!

ice lemon tea...OURS...

pizza at Luca's...

tired,sleepy,hyper...

i m tired...
i m confused...
my mind feels like a sardine can...
i feel hyper at times...
sleepy...

mummy is leaving for UK later this morning at 11..I won't be seeing her for a month after that..I couldn't imagine a month without her..I m so used to her at home now n then whenever I come home,I sort of think of it as a weekly routine that I will be seeing her every weekend when I come home but this time,I won't be hearing her voice,not for a month..I m not getting any rides home from KTM with her..no more tea time with her while waiting for bro till his tuition ends...no more going to GIANT for breads n household products...no more going to the market n pasar tani on sat mornings...no more watching hong kong drama series with her...ALL FOR A MONTH...that's like really long...I AM SO GONNA MISS HER...

looking back at what I've been through with her,I felt closer to her now than before..I mean when she was still working...she used to cramp up all her work in her mind n leave no space for leisure..all she thinks about is her work..I m not saying that she's a workaholic coz she still have time for family and home..but now,she takes things one at a time..I guess an illness like that can really cause ppl to make changes they might not even think of at times...

speaking of changes, I have a friend..she always confess saying that she doesn't have friends in class..ppl avoid her,ppl dun take her into their groups when it comes to group assignments,ppl stop talking to her for no reason,she also said that ppl dun treat her like how we(housemates) treat her...frankly,we treat her as part of us..we treat her as a family and a good friend though we often raise our voices while talking to her...I dunno y ppl avoid her n stuff like that..maybe they dun judge her like how we do..maybe they dun c her like how we do...though we think she's fine,but I still think that she still needs to change..at times,her attitude can really get to ur nerves but she's sporting enough...she said she take in critisms but I dun c any changes in her..giving her advises was like talking to the walls..at times,I just dunno how to help her when she doesn't listen...

tired....

yet another translation class..

translation is getting more and more humourous week by week...though it can be bored at times...this week's exercise is really hilarious...

Pls be noted that the letter below is a direct translation from BM...

Faridah(not really good in eng) ingin break up dengan boyfriend Mat Sallehnya melalui surat:

Hi.My motive write this letter to give u know something. I WANT TO CUT CONNECTION US.I saw u play wood three in front my eyes. So I break connection to pull my body from this love.I have to think about this cook cook.I know I clap 1 hand only.I don't trust u again.You are really crocodile land.I don't want u to play with my liver.I have been crying until no more eye water.I don't want banana to fruit two times.

my task was to write a better letter in eng for this person but I m not gonna type mine here coz there is nothing special as it is a proper version of a break up letter...

well,I hope this post can make someone's day better after reading it...

random...

sitting all alone in my room with my windows media player on with gary cao's "candlelight dinner" makes me feel like blogging...

I dunno y I felt like blogging but there are a lot of things which I would like to express..somehow I can't find those words to make sentences...sitting all alone like now makes me think a lot..a lot came to my mind...

I still find it hard to believe that 1 year had passed me by in a blink of an eye...When my tutor asked the whole class to introduce themselves today and also to include a serious topic after introducing urself,I caome to think that I dun have any topic for that..introducing yourselves seems like something u were doing back in primary and secondary school and not forgetting when we first started college life or even when u meet new acquaintances...that made me think of the people I have met in my life..

along the road as we live on,we meet loads and loads of people...some can be really friendly while some can be really snobbish..when 2 people meet into becoming friends which leads to best friends that hold each other's back whenever they fall are definitely not any ordinary coincidence...while life is a winding road,there is always someone for somebody out there to help them make that winding road easier to walk on...u can lose a best friend in a matter of seconds whereas it takes a lot of effort and time to keep one...for me,I think I have found my soulmates..though we are walking on different paths and different circles of friends now,we still hang on to each other and we will always noe when one of us have problems...somehow we manage to keep ourselves updated with each other's life in order to maintain that bond we have among us...thnx cartoonz!since I met u guys,I changed a lot...there isn't a second of it that I regret after meeting u guys...

P/S:
ryn,i noe this is kinda late and i did wish u on that day..but i would still like to wish u a HAPPY BELATED 19TH!

translation class...

4th sem wasn't any good headstart...timetable is really sucky..cramp up all lectures in one day(tuesday) and only one tutorial session for the rest of the days except for sundays,meaning I am having classes on saturday..i am like WHAT THE HELL LA?! I dun think this is the right way to arrange a timetable...it's really SUCKY and it can be tiring to only attend one class a day as u have to walk all the way there for only a 2 hrs class...

btw,attended translation lecture on tuesday...it was in a way boring and funny at the same time..just when u think it's starting to get boring,there is always something that makes u laugh...this are a few of the translations I learned on that day..some indeed are really special...

ST(Source Text): Have some water chestnuts. They are good for you
TT1(Target Text): Makanlah air buah dada ini. Memang baik untuk awak. -->direct translation
TT2: Makanlah sengkuang Cina ini. Memang baik untuk awak.

ST: She is wearing an orange hat.
TT1: Dia memakai topi berwarna oren.
TT2: Dia memakai topi berwarna kuning pinang masak.--> this is the exact description of orange

ST: Those apple green shoes look good on you.
TT1: Kasut hijau epal itu padan dengan awak.
TT2: Kasut hijau pucuk pisang itu padan dengan awak.

ST: Once you pop, the fun doesn't stop.
TT1: Sekali anda meletup, rasa happy tak berhenti(???)
TT2: Cuba sekali, keseronokan sudah pasti.

I guess this is how translation works..I think lectures are gonna get more and more interesting if this continues...

updates!!

updates here they come! reminding me of ryn who has been asking me to update..really sorry coz I shifted into a new hse back in KL and we had to get all the telephone line setup again..that is y I can't blog for the past 1 week...

Back in Klang today really makes me feel comfortable..I still can't really adapt to the new environment in that newly renovated house alongside with the smell of paint and bathroom floors full of sand. Though the facilities in that hse is twice better than the old one,but I think I still need some time to adapt..Futhermore with a few of the new housemates and the absence of my roommates,nothing makes me feel even more uncomfortable..distance to college is even further now that I have shifted and that makes life seem rather difficult..walking to college and back home is really differrent coz the roads back home are rather quiet..seems dangerous...cleaning the hse was tiresome but sleeping was hard that nite as it was the first nite..now that I have a TV there,I thought it would be good but it did not turn out as it seems as the TV is only provided with a cheapscate antenna..U can't even watch TV3 clearly..the conclusion is,living in that new hse for the past 1 week is nearing hell but I think as time passess by and when everyone are back,it will be fine..hope so!

Sem 4 started but it was really crappy as all my classes were cancelled but I can't come back home as I had to finish up the stuff left undone for the exhibition week..Decorating soft boards really isn't what I am good at..Typing those words over and over again just to get the size right is one thing,pinning them up and hurting my fingers is another,walking round the college pinning up flaglines took up most of my energy for the day, imagine walking round that huge college and going to places which u are not familiar with,which u don't go that often doesn't make my job easier but luckily I did not get lost,going home after 8pm almost every night just to make sure I have finished up as much as I can was really tiring..Despite all that,it was a pleasure working with the rest of the board..they are really nice ppl..it was the same feeling I had working with the ex EXCO but this time it feels more comfortable and the working environment is always filled with laughter..it was never silent in that dancing room and FAU room..and when u have a look at their work,it's really good compared to mine...how I envy what they had done to their boards...I just hope that all the effort put in by them would be appreciated..the exhibition is next week!

me signing off...